and the light bulb glows.

there are times when i surprise myself.
i really do.
the are times when i have said extremely intelligent and nice and "smart" things.
and later, i end up thinking whether i really said that.
but that is not the point.
the point is that i am the one who said all of that.
in my senses.
see.
i really could not have been under a state of intoxication because i am an idiot who doesn't smoke, drink or dope.
yes, laugh.
so, as i was saying, i surprise myself.
i really do, you know.


i think i'll show you how.

and no, they are not supposed to make sense.
you are just expected to read, raise your eyebrows and applaud.

if the world was to make sense
life would be but another wasted cause.
but life seems a little bit more than that little bit less
and i, the echoing applause.

i let go of you.
i just decided to infiltrate your mind,
so that you can't leave me behind.

you are here my friend,
right in front of me.
the booze is over
and so is she.
and there you stand,
all good and bright.
happy and content,
the way i like.

a little less for a little more.

okay.
this is the post where i shall sound very unlike myself.
HOWEVER, what follows is very me.
yes.
please take me seriously.
just this once.


it was the 15th of august yesterday.
and i know that you don't really care much.
but i do.
I Day gets me all excited and goosey, that is to say that i get goosebumps.
and i like it.
i like feeling all pathetic and teary all day.
it helps me realise what i am all about.
but i don't really see why people don't want to see things the way i do.
they rant and rage about how they want the perfect country and brilliant shit but they don't really open their eyes and see that that is how things are.
you talk about ignorance?
HOW can we be ignorant if we all have some amount of knowledge of how things are and how things should be?
you know.
i know.
they know.
we all know.
but we still say that NO ONE CARES.
sheesh.
grow up.
people care.
its just that you are too blind to see it.
i know that my country has flaws.
but they aren't that big either.
and it is very much fixable.
you say that today's youth is straying.
that we are not "indians" anymore.
we know, and we care more than any one of you could have ever cared.

i have hope.
and faith.
and i want everyone else to have faith.
on themselves.
and on the country.
the moment that is gone, we are gone as a nation.
i love my land.
and i want everyone else to love it the same way.
i know they do.
but i want everyone to love it as something more than a debate topic.
i know that this one blog post can't change anything.
but i had to post.
i just knew i had to.
*sigh*

...this land is brighter than the brightest star in the sky
it is a pity that you are blind...